Last night I was watching Demi Lovato's Stay Strong documentary again. Now that we're in the holiday season it made me start thinking about Thanksgiving and the 2 year passing of my grandma that's coming up on Friday.
As I was thinking about both situations, I started to get really anxious and started crying. I couldn't breathe, I felt like the walls were closing in on me. The worst. I've been really missing my grandma.
My eating disorder started when my grandma passed and my eating disorder was my only escape and my way to cope. Now that that time of year is coming up again, I honestly don't know how to cope. I've been 3 weeks behavior free and I'm trying not to go back to my eating disorder. I guess only time will tell.
